happy birthday, my amputated limb *

i couldnt get to slp last night.
after tossing and turning,
i decided to switch my phone on
to see the time.

and i realised,
it's 15th dec today.
my heart skipped a beat
when i remembered that it's your birthday today.

i used to have birthday reminders in my phone's calendar,
and i relied on those to help me remember.
but after i changed my phone a few times,
i got too lazy to do the calendar thing.
the people that i remember these days,
are the ones that i truly care for.

you know how,
after people go through amputation,
they experience 'phantom limbs'?
if you don't, just google that.
you'll see what i'm getting at.

you see, you're like a limb that i've amputated.
even though you're no longer here,
even though i've not seen you,
nor talked to you for all these years,
you haunt me still, like how an amputated limb would too.

it seems that breaking up is like amputating a limb then.

the problem is,
you never broke up with me in the first place.

oh well.
happy birthday darling.