still lost *

remember

this?

i was watching pikanchi.
the sequel.
both pikanchis starred arashi,
so that's why i watched them.

it's kinda erm. absurd?
like what the translator said.
so i wont force anyone to watch it.
(unlike maou. fred, have u maou-ed?)

it's about life and friendship.

ne, ne.

life is hard だけど happy.

だけど (dakedo) = but

life is hard だから happy.
だから (dakara) = thus

in the movie, it said that this subtle difference is quite big.

do you know the difference?
which would you prefer?

you see.
i dont know my needs and wants.
it's kinda scary to be standing here at the crossroad alone,
watching my friends stride purposefully in new and different paths.
while im still here, wondering where to head to,
wondering where to start.

i might be taking a step soon.
i dont know if it'll be successful yet.
but im hesitating because i dont know if it's what i want.

ne,
in the movie they also said that you can live your life with style or just with boredom.
boredom prolly meant that you dont like what your doing but you're still doing it,
because that's how life is.
money makes the world go round,
but money doesnt give you happiness.

im afraid to take that step.
because im afraid that i dont like what i'll do.
that i dont like who i've become.

but if i dont try, i'll never know.

but somehow, it's still overwhelming.

will i be happy?
or will i be yet another soulless being?