yes, facebook, yes.

i logged into fb rather aimlessly,
and i noticed a column that i've nv seen before.
that thing that reminds you that you've not talked to a friend lately.

that friend turns out to be, well, THAT friend.

so yes, dear fb, thanks for reminding me that we're friends but not friends.
that we dont talk anymore.
that the dull ache still exists.
that the hole is still there.
that the waves of pain still hit me.
that i still let the waves of pain pull me down and drown me.

it's nth even intentional on fb's part,
and im definitely overreacting.
but still.

thanks for letting me know that muzi has moved on without me.
maybe it'll help me move on too.

and i keep forgetting.
but yeah.
i worry so much it drives me nuts.
and i just cant stop worrying abt friday's outcome,
esp ever since my parents told me abt their plans.
seriously.
i worry too much, i fear too much.
my fears arent even rational most of the time...
but then again, thinking back..
fears are probably irrational to begin with huh?
like my fear of sea creatures and needles.

IM JUST BEING IRRATIONAL.

*EMOS AND KICKS SOME RANDOM CAN*