brain isnt mine

she asked if im ok.
i said yes.
but my brain said no.
and i told myself.. well maybe no, but maybe eventually i'll be. ok. i meant.
and then, it struck me. if i never was ok for that long, maybe i'll never be ok.

she asked me again the other day.
and i said maybe it's PMS.

but then, i realised that you can only blame PMS that many times before you realised that you're like constantly like this.

i think i need to be more ignorant.

or maybe..
my brain has grown another brain on its own!
like how fens said my comp is growing another brain on its own. im damn annoyed w my C drive.
i digress.
so yeah. im trying hard to stay positive, but the new brain is bent on taking me for a ride to the dark side.

or maybe?
i've nv come out of the dark side ever since.

what am i saying?
i duno. maybe that was new brain talking to old brain.