just another day..

cramps.
which led to backache.
which led to headache.
which caused me to be rather irritable today.

plus my left ear is blocked.
went swimming and water got into my ears.
happens everytime.
since friday.
and blocked ears make me irritable as well.
UGH.

all of us were so tired at work today.
and then there was a fire drill.
if u're familiar, u prolly alr know that i work on the 23rd storey.
and fire drills mean u walk down 23 storeys to level 1,
take the underpass, walk to novena church, take attendance, walk back.

i feel like a dead duck.
with wobbly legs.

and it's ur birthday.
i remembered.
and i was wondering if i shld wish u.
u didnt. so i shldnt, right?
that's how things go, isnt it?

cels was saying u do ask her abt me.
why dont u ask me directly?
why wont u tell me directly too?
but u didnt wish me in sept,
so i dont think u want me to in dec.

we were just parallel lines that somehow met anyway.

i think i carry too much past in my present.
i'm well aware of my problem,
yet i let it bog me down all the time.
if this isnt the death instinct, i dont know what is.

who was i kidding when i said it's just another day anw.

well, maybe it is.
just another day where i drown in those waves.