belief *

because i used to believe.

but somewhere along the way, i stopped believing.
i still scrapped through life somehow, because i had you,
and you believed enough for the both of us.
but somewhere along the way too, i lost you.

i've a hard time believing since then.

but maybe now, i'll gather enough courage,
and believe for the both of us.
because i know, much as you're not here,
you're still here.

it's one of the few things i've believed in all along.

dear you,
i might have hit jackpot..
with the job search.
i'm not sure yet since nothing's been signed..
but if i do get it.. i think it'll make me a better person.
someone you would be proud of.

i miss you so..
and if i keep believing?
maybe one night, you'll appear in my dreams.

p.s. in psychology, there's this thing called reinforcement.
like u reinforce a gd behavior by rewarding the child everytime he does that.
so if u want me to keep believing, give me a reward!

-shakes head-
i wonder who am i bargaining with.
oh well.

love,
wen