relearning

i dont know if it's still possible.
i let myself fall far too deep into the darkness,
and by the time i realised it, im already in a state of brokenness.

where dark thoughts were always lurking in my head like sharks.
you know they're there, but you don't know exactly where,
so you cant prevent the attacks.

where it seems as if i've been chained down..
unable to run away from things that haunt me,
unable to hide from thoughts that hurt me,
unable to go to places where i want to go,
unable to reach for help.

i don't know if i can.
but maybe.. it's time i'll learn how to set myself free.
put the pieces back together.
learn how to live a better life, emotionally.

but im not sure if i'll be able to find the pieces back.
what if i cant?
and i dont know how to go abt doing it either.

i think im babbling again.

but maybe, when i look back at this entry,
it'll give me the courage to be happy again.