nightmare

omg.
i dreamt that i was pregnant.

ok i'll be rambling in nonsensical circles cos im still traumatised.

the dream had no sequence at all.
one moment i was shopping w some friends.
hmm by now i cant recall everyone in my dream,
but hanmama was certainly there.

and then we bumped into the ex.
ok. my ex.

then we went shopping together.
(wtf??)

and suddenly i was at some spa-ish place.
everyone was in bliss, soaking their feet and relaxing.
at this point, the ny bballers were there too.
maria, cons, michi papa, rayeraye san....

木子was there too.

HOW WEIRD IS THAT??

but anw, i was soaking my feet as well.
then suddenly i realised im pregnant.
and spa-ish place transformed into a clinic.
but throughout the whole dream, my belly didnt look preggers at all.
and suddenly, someone told me ive given birth.
like.. what? without me noticing??

and hanmama was bringing me to the baby..
and i was like oh shit my parents know abt this??
but surprisingly my dad took it really well.
he was playing w the baby alr.
i think it was a boy.
[i want a baby girl, but tt's not the pt.]

well.
even in my dreams, im rational.
cos i was worrying about how im going to support that kid.
i cant believe it.
im such a worrywart, it extends all the way to my lalaland.

and i woke up shouting,
"holy shit im pregnant wth!?"
then the alarm rang and i was like huh?
it was only then that i realised it was a nightmare.

omg super scary.
ok the scary part wasnt really just being pregnant.

i dont think i mind being a single mom.
that's only if im financially stable and emotionally ready, of course.

the most traumatising issue was that.
the ex is the father of my baby.

-SCREAMS-

i sought reassurance from joanne and chewie.
lol. and complained to fling and fred at zoo today.

im damn tired from the scary nightmare.
plus. i keep having the hiccups!
before i slpt last night, i had them.
and when i woke up in the middle of the night, they started again.
and i had them once more while brushing my teeth this morning.

dont u think that hiccups are v exhausting?
i get tired easily aft having them.
haha. is it only me or it's normal?

anw, thanks chewie =)
she was such a sweetie.
she said she'll help me out if im ever a single mom.
which is likely. given technology these days,
i can get pregnant artificially if i dont marry.

alright.
u'll be my baby's godmother. =))
*hugs*