Monday, February 9, 2009

academic frustration

in my short lifespan,
i went from hardworking in pri sch,
to couldnt-care-less in sec sch and jc,
to crazy in uni.

somewhere along the way,
i became less confident of my ability,
more paranoid,
more dependent.

why is it that i still don't understand
even though i've studied the notes?
it makes me feel so handicapped,
so helpless.

it reminds me of the state i was in when i experienced learned helplessness.

when did i become so weak?

my weakness scares me.

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