[ 1 more!! ]

yes!
one more jap paper to go before this sem's ordeal finally ends.

im so so so dead, im practically rotting.
seriously.
i threw away 50% of my marks today for venus's.
cos i didnt know how to do the 1st 6 qns.
it was like the ultimate test of my bullshitting ability.
and i just left 2 qns blank.
decided to be kind, and spare venus the agony of reading bullshit.

and ive been very unfocused for the past few days.
even during the paper.
心不在焉。
考试时， 心刺刺地痛。
my heart wasn't there.
so in e end i decided to just finish the paper,
and rush down to mandai for the procession instead.
sigh.

im so tired of being here.
im tired of being tired.
i cant slp.
i dont want to slp.
im afraid of nightmares.
im afraid of what i'll think, the moment i stop thinking about academic stuff.
yet i cant focus.
i couldnt focus on venus's nonsense at all.
im dead.
and i dont want to start thinking.
cos i know i'll make myself depressed.
and now's not the time to be crying.
crying's too tiring for me to handle now.
im tired.
sigh.

梦游了几天，真得很累。。
累，是被自己累坏了呢。。
还是因为心累了。。 怎样都会觉得累呢？

but the show must go on.
just one more.
one more.
and you get to think all you want.
cry all you want.
and do every other self-destructive nonsense you're prone to doing.

26th.
等你等到好辛苦。。

and work's boring as usual.
im gg nuts w boredom.
i need sth to occupy my mind to prevent me from thinking too much!!

on the other hand, tt darkdarkdark corridor leading to the toilet..
is so damn freaking scary!
but i dont want THAT to occupy my mind either leh.
ltr i scare myself to death. -__-
stupid lights, why must you spoil on wed..
as if weds arent dark and scary and quiet enough.
T.T

yes, i realised im babbling nonsense.
im slp-deprived leh.
*zombiefied*