some anti-men thoughts..

i finally got to visit the mind's cafe!
haha. it's my first time there today with the psych girls.
and it was great fun.
merries, let's do it again!
=D

and well. when i got back.
my scv remote control was a bit kuku,
then my dad kept banging it on the floor.
it started with little taps,
and escalated into frustrated bangs.
i could feel his frustration via the poor remote.

but anw, i figured it was the contact problem,
so i told him he can work it another way.
and he vented his stupid frustration on me.

yes, even frustration can be categorized as stupid, and non-stupid.
stupid is when it's just because it's a remote, he can calmly solve the problem rite?
non-stupid is like when u're frustration by social/psychological problems.
in my humblest opinion.

so he went "just change the bloody batteries!!!!!"
and i was like "cant u do it yourself?? if you know how to solve the stupid problem!"
it's like i could have not bothered with his stupid ridiculous nonsense,
and i decided to help him.

男人.
自大.
自以为是.
无聊. 幼稚.

there are so many stories ive heard abt other stupid, mcp-fathers of my friends.
but my point is,
i might have figured out why im so anti-men.

most of them, are like my dad.
they're male chauvinistic pigs, and have too much self-importance.
they think that they should be served like a king,
just because they're the sole breadwinners.
then when their children give them problems,
they blame the mother for not teaching them well enough.

have you tried to educate your children yourself?
you blame your wife for your children's bad manners, and problems,
but have you realised that they might just be modelling your rude behavior to your wife?
but hey! im talking abt a man.
i dont think they realise things like that. -shrugs-
and being a sole breadwinner doesnt automatically mean that you've got the worst job.
everyone's role is different, and each has its unique difficulties.
dont give me that shit about you having a tough day at work.
i had a tough day at school.
mom's had a tough day at home.
we all have our unique problems,
so dont give me that bull about how difficult it is to be a man.

some of them, are like my first uncle.
after my grandma toiled her years away,
and thought that she can finally reap the fruits of her labour,
her son marries a china woman,
who purposely ruined their mother-son relationship.
she's old and vulnerable,
yet they dont cook her dinner for her,
or let her use the washing machine.
so she has to wash her clothes manually, and cook separately from the family.
eventually, when my grandma had a stroke and was hospitalized,
they chased her out of the house.

some of them, are like my third uncle.
just plain weird.
i know, i always insist that weird is special too.
but his weird means that he's..
well.
too private to share.

some of them, are like my fourth uncle.
my mom doted on him.
we were a close family,
until he married a malaysian hairdresser.
he used to discriminate hairdressers.
those were the days when people think that female hairdressers are like..
i duno? they seduced men or sth?
cos he actually said that my mom's friend (a female hairdresser) is not honest/loose/cannot be trusted/up to no good/etc.
and he married a female hairdresser!
but hey! he's a man. welllll........

and then his wife went kuku,
and he blamed us for things we never did,
and insulted my parents.
because of his wife.
who, let me remind you, is a female hairdresser,
which he accused of being up to no good all the time.
and he belongs to the same category as my unmanliest man "friend".

some men, are like my dad's stepfather.
they drink, then they beat up their own kids and their wives.
which i really dont get it.
and it's worst when it's the actual genetic parents that abuse their own kids.
and usually, men abuse more than women.
wtf are you doing to your own kids??
as a parent, you should provide a safe and caring environment for them.
i should think that that's an obligation.
a basic requirement for being a parent.
if not, u're just ruining your kids,
why bring them to the world in the first place?
there's enough suffering to go around.

some men, are like my dad's dad.
they just walk away.
even if their wife bore them sons.
which u know,
chinese tradition of favouring men over women.
which is another thing that i really dont get.

other men, are like my first crush.
no, not mu zi.
they flirt, they get involved with too many women.

and then,
there's always that problem.
how do you know, for sure,
that it's love, not lust?

yes i do realise im being horribly mean to men,
and i've to admit that not all my male friends are lidat.
but then again, that's because im not very willing to spend time with most males in the first place.

and i just rmb,
an aquaintance of mine,
well she's maria's best friend.
and she had the sweetest bf.
i thought, we thought.
and she's really pretty and sweet herself.
artistic and cute and all that.

and jeanne and i saw her bf flirting with girls in clubs.
not once.
we did tell maria after we saw him doing that the second time..
but oh well.

and that reminds me of evo psych.
mixed reproductive strategy, where men will invest quite a lot of one female,
but keep enough resources to invest in a few other females.
that idea of men "sowing their seeds far and wide", with an added twist i guess.

and then.
well, i was quite eggcited when meanie told me that two females can actually have children.
genetic, not adopted.
but it'll result only in female, not male, offsprings.
but i dont mind a single bit.
cos even if i wanted to have children
(yes, i love children, but i dont have faith in myself either.
see, im equal. i dont have faith in the opposite sex,
but i dont have faith in myself as well.),
i'll want to have girls, not boys.

anw,
i know, i might be generalizing too much.
but these are just random thoughts that kept swimming in my head,
when my dad was being such a horrible brat.
yes, brat.
i dont really see guys growing up actually.
as in, maturing emotionally, socially, spiritually, intellectually, and the like.
some of them just seem to be like a bigger physcial version of their smaller physical selves sometimes.

i can be immature sometimes,
but oh well.
forget it, i dont want to defend myself.
i just dont like some specices of the opposite sex.
as meanie will put it,
maybe it's just my "lesbianic tendencies" working up.

who knows?