[ l o s i n g . w i l l * ]

toe cramps.
blisters.
ankle hurts.
knees hurts.
hand hurts.
gastric.
labour pain.
headache.
ulcer. (another one.)
heartache.

im hurting.
and depressed.
and losing will.
i dont know where im going. i dont see the end. i dont think i can reach it.
i dont want to carry on walking. im tired.
i dont have the confidence.
i dont think i can make it.
i want to give up.
i know, im a loser. and yes. ive lost perserverance.
have always been one ever since i gave up tennis.
if in my loved ones eyes, im a loser. no matter what, im still a loser.

累.

but im thankful to everyone who came today.
cecilia, grace, fiancee, jasmine, fiancee's friend, joanne, bird, sameema, mama, nini, augustus, laolao, lessie, david, and mean girl. and whoever i missed out, im sorry. im tired.
im sorry i wasted u time running up and down. and made u wait for ur turn.
对不起, 谢谢你*