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it's the first time that beans actually wrote me sth.
she insisted that i post it here so that i will rmb it.
hey you! =)
we've our differences,
and that's what makes our friendship special.
dont be rubbishy, saying that u dont deserve my friendship.
i'll slap u if u say that agn.
LOL.

to my fav bitch in the universe,

it didn’t start well..

our friendship.

we weren’t even friends in the first place.

i disliked u.

always bright, always smiling, always with a big group of friends.

always chatting animatedly, bursting in boisterous laughter that distracted me during lectures.

i was mean to u, and i know u knew that i didn’t quite like u.

but my dislike for u did not prevent u from helping me when i was in deep shit.

u pulled me out and stopped the bleeding.

u did so stop denying it.

without ur, urm, super long speech, i wouldn’t have woken up from my stupor.

what have i done to deserve ur friendship?

nth much, i suppose.

but u were always there, always ready to give, always ready to sacrifice.

not only for me, but also for others.

u were always ready to love,

and always ready to protect & defend the ones u loved.

it used to make me happy, seeing u bouncing everywhere,

giggling at random things.

but then it happened.

and u became more and more like me.

i was only joking when i said ‘welcome to the dark side, bitch!’

i’ll always remember ur reply..

and the image will always haunt me..

you, looking up with those unseeing eyes,

scratching the word ‘damaged’ over and over again on ur arm.

‘what dark side? there’s nth but darkness here.’

when my heart broke, u were there.

when urs broke, mine broke too.

i know u’re always wondering how to put the pieces of ur heart back together.

i know the others always wonder when will u be urself again,

that bubbly bouncy girl.

i know how u mask ur pain, pretending to be that bubbly bounch girl,

so that we won’t worry for u.

but we still worry, because we know that that’s not who u are now,

and that u’re hurting urself doing that.

u’ve always written sweet love notes to me,

so i’ve decided to write one back to u on my blog too.

no matter who u are, i will still love u,

even if u’re still hurting, still broken.

that’s all i can give,

for ur friendship.

love,

thefatgreenbean.