[ be my baby * ]

[ If I don't say this now I will surely break
As I'm leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh, oh
I'll look after you.. *]

if you let me, i'll look after you.
i'll take your pain away.

but who'll look after me?
who can take my pain away?

will blood always be thicker than water?
because some blood's toxic.
like how i'll always say,
extended family's toxic.
causes detrimental consequences to your mental health sometimes.

like how chewie once told me.
this poor couple will always be asked at family gatherings,
"when will you two have kids?"
or the like.

the horrible 三姑六婆s.
cant they figure it out by themselves?
if until now, they dont have kids, it's either:
(i) they dont want any! stupid kuku aunties. leave them be!
(ii) they cant have any! stupid kuku aunties. practice some sensitivity pls.

i know, usually beneath their horribly nosy exterior, they care.
to some extent, they're concerned.
but everytime they mention it, it either causes awkwardness, or pain.
cos if it's (ii), it'll definitely sting each time the topic's brought up.

so that poor couple might avoid gatherings altogether.
it's like. they only have each other now, cos they dont have children.
so what happens if they quarrel, and one of them needs a listening ear?
what if they get a divorce somewhere along the way?
by now, they've pushed their relatives so far away,
they have no one else to turn to.
and if they fall into depression and any other serious conditions,
well, you'll have a part to play in that.
for being that horribly nosy nusiance.

and my extended family's more toxic than that.

and yes, i chose my friends over them once.
and im not afraid to do it again.

i dont believe that "blood is thicker than water" will always be the case.
some water, to me, is as thick as blood, if not thicker.

that, of course, doesnt apply to my parents.
just only to my extended family.
poisonous.