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it's only the first day of school,
and im alr so tired.
fling and i kept complaining that we're super tired and slpy the whole day la.

and we didnt even have proper lessons.
so we kept wondering why are we so tired. sigh.


i cant explain the way i feel.
i dont know what's missing.
maybe i do. maybe it's you that's missing.

i dont know what im looking for.
and after today's talk, this is such an understatement.

and i cant find a way out of this maze of grief.
where the wrists are stained red.
the mind is stained black.
and the heart is deteriorating
into the black hole of nothingness.
emptyness.
the hole that has formed inside of me,
and no amount of time will heal.

what should i do, when even time cannot heal my wounds?

sometimes i wish.. so intently that i get lost in my mind.
lost in my mind looking for something that i'll never find.

and you.
you're so out of reach.
i could have talked to you today.
but i hid and watched you walk away.
and i cant help feeling overwhelmed now.
cos it seems like the only way i can see you
is through your photos posted online.

it's the first time little x's photo made me cry.